October 12, 2015 at 12:59 am #362
Is anyone else having a really hard staying focused in school? I am trying really hard to keep up with my work but I am so exhausted mentally and emotionally. I know my parents will be disappointed if I fall behind or start doing poorly and I really don’t want my dad to feel guilty about his illness impacting me. ThanksOctober 12, 2015 at 1:28 am #365
Aww, just try to hang in there! If anything, I tried really hard to use my school work as a good distraction from everything going on at home. I guess I felt like at least I could control that aspect of my life, at least more so than my dad’s illness. Just try not to put too much pressure on yourself. You’re going through a really sucky time. Keep pushing!January 26, 2016 at 1:36 pm #558
I agree with laylaloo. It’s a weird time when you’re trying to keep up with all your schoolwork and also worrying all the time about your dad. My school work was something that made me happy. It was something I was doing for my future and I knew my dad would want me to do the best I could in school. Some days, though, you may just have a difficult time doing work. During the last month of my father’s life, I felt guilty for doing homework or studying for a test while I could have been sitting by his bedside. I wish life could have stopped for me so that I could spend every waking second with him. However, I realized that my relationship with my dad was not defined by his last month. It was defined by my whole life spent with him. He told me he wanted me to continue living life, playing sports, doing my homework and see him as much as I was able to. He didn’t expect me to be with him at all times and he truly wanted me to keep living and I think it made him happy seeing me playing softball everyday and trying my best in school and it gave him reassurance that I was going to be alright after he was gone. It was hard to keep on doing things as if life was normal because I knew it wasn’t, but I knew my dad wanted this for me. I kept remembering that my dad would want me to do well in school but most importantly he wanted me to try my best and he understood that some days were going to be tougher than others for doing my schoolwork and that was okay. I think your father understands that this is a big life change for you and I’m sure he wouldn’t feel guilty about his illness impacting you. Just keep your head up and keep plugging away in school doing the best you can!January 29, 2016 at 1:23 pm #562
Thank you guys so much. Foodie54 – thank you so much. What you said has really really helped me and changed my perspective.
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