I’m so sorry you and your family have to go through this. I’m in the middle of it too and it just sucks. I wish I knew a better word but “sucks” seems to work best. When I found out I felt like I got hit in the gut. I shed a few tears and just hugged my dad.
So far I’ve found that sports has really helped me. I play football and it helps me get out my anger and gives me something to focus on. I can use the training to help me distract myself. Best of luck to you